Thoughts...in the key of me.

So it’s fall again. It’s a bit strange being in Georgia for fall this year because last fall I was in Asheville. It actually gets cold up there…none of this 85 degrees in October nonsense. When one season packs its things and gets ready to tip its hat farewell, I always reflect on what went on during that season. One word to summarize the summer (haha): struggle. With many, many things. Graduating yanked the rug of community out from under me quite unpleasantly. With no instant community around me, making new friends has been a bit rough. I’ve become pretty decent friends with the folks at the restaurant, all of whom are great people….just not the kind of people I’ve ever been accustomed to hanging around. I lost myself in all the shuffle and my decision making skills suffered from it. My relationship with God shrank drastically. My stubborn head was determined to fix things and get back on track. I knew in the back of my mind the whole time that I couldn’t…..it’s impossible for me to handle my problems. The changing of the season has brought a change of heart, though. I’ve seen a glimpse of life without a connection to God, and it’s awful. I realized that I was letting down God, my family, and myself. Going home for a few days last week allowed me to get away from Macon and think. I read my bible, which is something I haven’t done in months. I’ve been reading Rob Bell’s Velvet Elvis, which has at least kept my thoughts on spiritual things every once in a while. David Crowder Band’s new CD, Remedy, is very good….it has a song on it that we did at Passion 07 that I had completely forgotten about until I heard it again. The lyrics have been a huge encouragement to me lately.

At the start, He was there
He was there
In the end, He’ll be there
He’ll be there
And after all our hands have wrought
He forgives

Oh, the glory of it all
Is He came here
For the rescue of us all
That we may live
For the glory of it all
Oh, the glory of it all

All is lost; find Him there
Find Him there
After night, dawn is there
Dawn is there
And after all falls apart
He repairs
He repairs

Oh, the glory of it all
Is He is here
With redemption from the fall
That we may live
For the glory of it all
Oh, the glory of it all

After night
Comes a light
Dawn is here
Dawn is here
It’s a new day, a new day
Oh, everything will change
Things will never be the same
We will never be the same

So now the trick is remembering who I am, and living it.