Thoughts...in the key of me.

I absolutely love it when my mind gets blown. It's such a breath for your life...you think one certain way about something for a long, long time...and then out of nowhere, you hit a sharp turn and come to realize that things can be new.

I especially love it when the discovery of new music blows my mind and totally changes my perception of what it is. I remember clear as day when I discovered mind-blowing music. It was at my Aunt's old house. My family would spend a couple of weeks there every summer and it was a blast. Not only did she have a pool (and unlimited pop-ices) but her house was a sprawling ranch style...so that made for some awesome exploring. This particular afternoon I was snooping around my cousins' bedrooms, which I often did (sorry, Adam and Sam). I ran across some of Sam's CDs and was looking through them and I found Dave Matthews Band Under the Table and Dreaming. I put it in, and Ants Marching started to play....and my mind was blown wide open. I grew up listening to Christian music because I have a really sticky brain when it comes to songs (my dad has a story about me singing every word to a Madonna song at age 2 if you want proof). Although I have some reservations about the Christian music industry, most of the stuff I was listening to was the good stuff....Third Day's early stuff, DC Talk's early stuff...but when I heard that DMB song something just snapped, and I've been totally addicted to the world of music ever since. I guess what reminded me of this is when I was listening to Sufjan Stevens yesterday. I remember the first time I heard Chicago it blew my mind and got me hooked on indie stuff.

I tend to be a realist (or pessimist, whichever you prefer) about things in life, so most of the time I see the worst case scenarios in my mind. Thinking about mind-blowing experiences, though, encourages me. I know that there have been many things I've seen and heard that have totally changed my brain waves, but there are so many more I have yet to experience. There are National Parks I haven't been to...cities I haven't seen...I haven't performed my music in front of people yet...I haven't had my photography in a gallery...I haven't walked down the aisle or become a mother. All of this stuff is going to blow my brains out....and it's gonna be awesome. That's enough to get me through the mundane sometimes.

I can think of many, many ways. Have the new friends I've been making at work seeing me? Somehow I don't think so. I'm pretty sure they're seeing some weird freaked out version of myself.

Yes, it's uncanny to see
You'd really think it was me
I do the best imitation of myself